I’m responsible for my emotional state, I’m responsible for what I let effect me. I can blame others if I choose but it will do nothing to change the fact that it is within me. I can choose to grow or I can remain stagnant. My mother not being there for me, for being addicted to drugs, doesn’t reflect on my worth, it reflects on her choices in life and in finally realizing and accepting that I can change in how I react to people not being there, It’s a reflection on their choices and not on me. Why should I feel content in reliving the old pains over and over when I can change my outlook and grow?